What rescue 911 taught me while growing up watching it

What Rescue 911 with William Shatner taught me while I was growing up is:

1. Ordinary looking people can be hero's too including myself. Especially bald guys they save the day a lot!

2. To be vigilant cuz you never know when an emergency could happen at all times (enter anxiety hello)

3. Don't run with anything in your hands matter of fact the only time you should be running is if something is chasing you cuz man you could fall and break something or stab yourself with what is in your hands.

4. Be scared to live and do anything at all that could endanger you or others lives.

5. Share with everyone your concerns so they don't be stupid like the people on the show who don't recognize a danger when they hear it or see it.

6. Cut everyone out of your life that do not heed what you say and apply the concern cuz you are a party pooper and shouldn't ruin it for everyone else by letting them have fun even if someone could potentially die from whatever it is the activity they are wanting to do or are doing, because there is a safety net called 911 which will come in and rescue and save the day when these idiots around you make an emergency happen. 

So recap. You should live a life to its fullest there is always someone there to rescue you. Be bold be brave however this anxiety you have comes up every time anyone wants to do anything outside of sitting around doing something...is it really anxiety? Or is it excitement of going on an adventure and actually needing to use these heroes or have to become a hero in your adventure and save the day?

Don't believe me? Go to https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCtW22pz-qM3fV1Bv8714ibQ rescue 911's channel and watch all them episodes you will get a feel for it real fast then I want you to come back here and report what you learned and if you learned the same as me? Comment below and let me know what you learned from it!

Attention: to the deaf community

Dearest deaf community,

I have been noticing more and more signing during news broadcasts but notice how the speakers do not speak slow enough for the interpreter to keep up and it seems they miss a bit of what is said because it is hard to keep up with speed talkers. Are my observations correct? Do you rely on the interpreter or do you rely on closed captioning which is a joke because of the same problem speed talkers not allowing someone to type it out. Why arent you all speaking up about it? Make a stink about it! I mean they are trying very hard to accommodate but they need to know it isn't enough the speakers need to be deliberate with their words and slow down. Am I right?

Dear film writers and tv writers and social media folks

Dear perfect life illusionist,
In life we are either alone waiting for the right one, or we feel stuck in the relationship we are in, or we are content in either. The reason is because we are comparing ourselves to those on social media or in movies or on tv.

What if tv and movies were more realistic? So we can bring down expectations and level the playing field. And what if we shared our not so much greatest moments in our lives to level the playing field on social media and stop using filters people you are perfect just the way you are.

Life and relationships are not always going your way all the time. If it is congratulations you are a rare unicorn amidst reality. Until the bar is lowered on our screens, the make believe world of perfection in our faces will just continue making us expect perfection all the time and be miserable in our not so perfect lives.

So directors, writers, and people stop making life seem perfect all the time, because reality is that rarely does it ever go so smoothly. Thanks.

Sincerely,

Inadequate woman

Mental Illness

I wrote this while in the mental hospital: When mental illness overrules your life, sorrowful sadness engulfs your every being cutting friends and family out with a knife, because they don't understand. The feelings, the actions, the thinking, the sheer panic is out of your control, and all you seek is a validation of said ailments. Few people are on board, most are not. Faking it until you make it works some but mostly just masks and makes it worse. But the few who know it is real and it is hard are too few and far between. Majority rule over your life is NOT on the same page, they say you don't need meds, you don't need help, you don't need these things. YOU ARE STRONG YOU GOT THIS! BUT I DON'T! I DO NEED HELP! FUCK EVERYONE! I AM NOT STRONG! I AM BROKEN! AND THAT'S OKAY! If it's not Okay with most so be it they can get the fuck out of my life cuz this is MY LIFE and I want a life worth living, cuz this life today, right now, is not worth living! So yeah that was a moment of a sheer outpouring of emotions, and pure internal chaos poured out on paper. Hope this helps someone out there. We will be okay someday, we just have to wait for this internal narrative to get out, then not act upon the thoughts of running away or killing ourselves cuz it will pass believe me it does it may take a few minutes to a few days but in the meantime do your coping skills, coloring books, music, crafting, etc. Whatever you need to do to get through just do not do the things frowned upon, like cutting don't do that...society doesn't understand that outlet so don't do that. I am here for you if you need me to be BUT, if you are male I am sorry you are going to have to find someone else as I get too emotionally involved with that said inquirer. Sorry, not sorry...gotta preserve my marriage at this point in time. I hope you understand. God Bless you! Call the suicide hotline or call the crisis hotline or there is even a texting service just have to be patient with them to text back as it seems to take a bit longer than needed I believe so Crisis needs to be handled by call center but one that can wait through a pretty long waiting period can text. This is MY advice, I am not a professional, and I just am sharing what works and doesn't work for me. Writing is my outlet. I hope sharing my outlet with the world helps at least one person. Because I feel like I am here for nothing, I am going through all this for nothing. I have a story but no one gets the whole share it thing and think I am seeking a pity party and that isn't it I just wanna help someone. If I inspired you please drop it in the comments cuz that is what I want in this life, to be someone that changed someones outlook on life. Thanks, Sincerely, Beka Jo D

Mental Health from the patients view

I am sorry, not sorry, but I have to say something because of recent happenings that lead my family to make certain comments to me about my mental health. You sound better...yeah fake it till I make it, at least I am fooling them; if only I could fool myself I would be so much better off... I am sorry but being in a psych ward is not a horrible thing, being glad I am out of a safe environment is what is horrible, I mean it is like: when I am home I am at risk of doing impulsive harm to myself at any given moment of any given day no matter what encouraging words people say because it only takes a second to get started on self-harm and then zone out and before you know it you did a number on yourself...but you get it...cut me off...repeatedly...didn't really get me and what I was saying but yeah you win talk over me because you are right...you were far from close to what it is like for me...This last episode of psychosis convinced me my husband was poisoning me and I needed to get out and run away asap and I nearly did. It was so real to me that I was seriously on edge with anxiety and fear for my life. You have no clue what that feels like and I hope you never do and if you have then I am deeply sorry you went through that. I am also wanting to put this out here...so I sound better okay I am glad I sound better but it doesn't mean my battle is over...no matter how much I want it to be...mental illness is not a cold or flu its an ongoing battle for the rest of my life like a stroke with permanent damage left behind, and what you say in my vulnerable moment when I return to reality adds to the damage experienced. I really wish there was a cure to mental illness cuz then we wouldn't have so many homeless people...we would be a high functioning society...and bonus we all would get along for the most part...Then I could every day not wonder what it will bring and if it will cause chaos in my sensitive brain... I also wish I didn't believe in mental illness like some of you kinda hint at...because then these unrealistic thoughts wouldn't consume my every being of my body until I experience pain all over my body, or I suffer what feels and acts like a stroke or heart attack...and then I wouldn't have to make a jack ass of myself and go to the ER for a shot of Haldol to make the panic attack stop and stop my symptoms of life or death symptoms.... Also would like to point out that there is nothing you can say that is correct to say to me straight out of the mental hospital so just offer support through offering to come over to do laundry, clean house, dishes, just to talk and listen to me, to make sure I am doing my self-care, check in on me, care, don't be judgemental, don't tell me how to handle my mental illness, my madness maybe named the same as your madness but it can be experienced on different varying degrees of intensity and weakness...and some aspects may not even be experienced at all by either of us or only one of us... My losses are equal to others on horrible levels and on minute levels...what I mean is I feel the sadness and depression from my losses in my life has a cap and everyone has small or big loss caps at the same level as everyone and we are all the same...in grieving...in sadness, in darkness, in fear, in chaos, in despair. We are the same we are not alone in our suffering and we are no longer going to sit silent and allow people to make us feel inferior to them. That is it for now, share if you like and agree Thanks! Sincerely, Rabeka Jo

Society decisions that make them who they are

Not only who they are but how they act and what leads them to being that way.
We all have thousands of influences in our walking life that make us be who we are today. But it is our choice in an indirect way. Like a magnetation field. If you start a theory of what could be wrong with your body, how fast you go on board with an idea or theory depends on how out of control and how quickly you spin out of control with the thought. Sometimes you can grasp that thought while it is spinning out of control but it takes practice.
I will edit this and add to it later. That's all I have right now. Thank you for subscribing so you can read the rest of this later comment what you think about this theory. Let let know if it makes sense to you. If you have been able to grasp the spinning out of control emotion and stop it from being out of control how did you do so? What are you experiencing right now? How did you stumble on my blog?
Thanks guys.

The real world of doctors theory

So, hi my name is Rabeka, and I have fibromyalgia, L5S1 fusion back surgery  among other surgeries and other diagnosis. I am depressed because what I'm thinking is going on with the doctors involved with my care.
Soon as I list off my surgeries the doctor in front of me demeanor from "I want to help figure this out and fix it" to "she is untouchable because i gotta back up my fellow doctors who have done surgery on this number" or when I hadn't had surgery listed off the mental diagnosis I have their demeanor changes to "oh, this is a mental case just give her haldol and send her home" and let me tell you, haldol is a fun drug to be on. Hope you heard my sarcasm in that statement lol.
How have you experienced the medical field? How do they react to your diagnosis?
Even the surgeon he used to give me hope, the only one who said my pain was real and this is why. I felt validated but now, he is cold and distant he still wants to help. But because he had done surgery on me he has to avoid diagnosis involving the area he did surgery on same with all the others. So this last visit I was told my numbness in my legs are not caused by my back but my ventricular system. So I got to prove it's not that before they will treat me for what they know is wrong.
Then there are the power tripper doctors, there is a fine line between addiction and cant handle pain. But who decides which side you the patient belongs on? The doctors. You sometimes feel like you are apart of some research project the ones who believe all natural is the way to treat patients. Others are full on antibiotics, antifungal, treat the illness not the symptoms with man made garbage that causes more symptoms to treat so patients are on a handful of man made chemicals in the end making big pharma rich.
What are some of your experiences with doctors? Which type of doctor do you have?
Ask questions in the comments. I really wanna hear from you my readers.

Dear frustrated Parents out there

Dear frustrated parents out there,
Your child/ren did not ask to be born and I am sure you can remember when you learned about them growing and how bittersweet the news was. At first maybe if it was a surprise you were horrified but that didn't last long. Soon you became excited and began dreaming what the child will be like and what they will be interested in. Wondered what they will look like. The sonograms just made you love them even more and excited you so much you couldn't wait to hold them in your arms.
And here they are frustrating you to no end.
Take a deep breath and repeat this mantra with me:
"My child did not ask to be born"
"This is the child I longed for 8 months to hold"
"This is a phase and will get better"
Just take things one day at a time or one hour at a time and if needed one minute at a time. Walk away when you can't control you and your words and actions. (Making sure they are someplace safe first). Deep breaths. You can face this. It is temporary.  Think back when you wanted this child and hold on to that connection you made when they were growing.
If you can remember a time maybe after birth and looking at them you felt elated in amazement how such a small baby could move you to want to be selfless and give them everything you can so they have the best life.
If you faced postpartum depression and never experienced this even today please seek professional help, it is okay to reach out for help and you don't have to feel that way you do. It is okay to feel that way. But you need  to get help so you can experience these feelings your brain is not allowing you to feel.
If you are a father and you fear the child is not yours there is dna testing to ease your mind or verify your suspicions are true. Then if you find you are not the father you can make a choice to love them as your own and be the best step dad as you can be or walk away with your broken heart and hope you can recover from deceit.
My thoughts and prayers are out there for each and everyone of you. I hope this helps you to enjoy your children instead of being frustrated with them being kids.
Sincerely,
Rabeka Jo D