I don't think I have a self esteem issue...it is more of a nobody knows what I've been through...I haven't changes the world like I feel my story should...
I feel like I've been telling my story to all the wrong people and I can't help but to tell my story and people are tired of hearing it...but I just gotta tell it...but to who? That is the mystery....everyone I tell it to...are sympathetic but that is far from what I want....I want my life to change their lives as well as everyone else's lives in the world...but it just pushes those around me away...and leaves me alone...and I hate being alone...I feel I'm letting God down because my story isn't doing what I think it should and it was all a waste and worthless and it was all for nothing...I went trough all I went through for just the fun of it and for absolutely nothing and it was no point at all to it all...I let y'all down...and I'm sorry I failed to change the world...
Sincerely,
Rabeka Jo D
PS. Does anyone else out there feel this way?
