Society decisions that make them who they are

Not only who they are but how they act and what leads them to being that way.
We all have thousands of influences in our walking life that make us be who we are today. But it is our choice in an indirect way. Like a magnetation field. If you start a theory of what could be wrong with your body, how fast you go on board with an idea or theory depends on how out of control and how quickly you spin out of control with the thought. Sometimes you can grasp that thought while it is spinning out of control but it takes practice.
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The real world of doctors theory

So, hi my name is Rabeka, and I have fibromyalgia, L5S1 fusion back surgery  among other surgeries and other diagnosis. I am depressed because what I'm thinking is going on with the doctors involved with my care.
Soon as I list off my surgeries the doctor in front of me demeanor from "I want to help figure this out and fix it" to "she is untouchable because i gotta back up my fellow doctors who have done surgery on this number" or when I hadn't had surgery listed off the mental diagnosis I have their demeanor changes to "oh, this is a mental case just give her haldol and send her home" and let me tell you, haldol is a fun drug to be on. Hope you heard my sarcasm in that statement lol.
How have you experienced the medical field? How do they react to your diagnosis?
Even the surgeon he used to give me hope, the only one who said my pain was real and this is why. I felt validated but now, he is cold and distant he still wants to help. But because he had done surgery on me he has to avoid diagnosis involving the area he did surgery on same with all the others. So this last visit I was told my numbness in my legs are not caused by my back but my ventricular system. So I got to prove it's not that before they will treat me for what they know is wrong.
Then there are the power tripper doctors, there is a fine line between addiction and cant handle pain. But who decides which side you the patient belongs on? The doctors. You sometimes feel like you are apart of some research project the ones who believe all natural is the way to treat patients. Others are full on antibiotics, antifungal, treat the illness not the symptoms with man made garbage that causes more symptoms to treat so patients are on a handful of man made chemicals in the end making big pharma rich.
What are some of your experiences with doctors? Which type of doctor do you have?
Ask questions in the comments. I really wanna hear from you my readers.